Phoenix - “Too Young” from United
I will be 30 in exactly 2 months from today. It’s kind of surreal. I never expected to live to 30. Not because I thought I was going to kill myself or that I would die in some tragic way, but because I just couldn’t envision myself as a 30 year old man. As pigeonholing as it sounds, 30 year olds were always husbands, they were fathers, they had careers, they had binding responsibilities. I am none of those things. Even though I’ve constantly thought about the future instead of living my life in the moment, I never actually pictured I’d be here, sitting on the cusp of another decade of my life, still dealing with the same uncertainties and self-inflicted unfortunate circumstances I was at age 18. Obviously, a lot has changed, my emotions have shifted, and I am generally happier than I have ever been in my life, but the uncertainty is still looming. I guess I just deal with it better than I have in the past.
